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# What I Want
- URL: https://www.outsourcedtoai.com/what-i-want-68c1f2860ef3c0001aba3c40/
- Published: 2025-09-10T21:55:00.000Z
- Updated: 2026-05-27T22:36:43.000Z
- Description: But I am choosing. I am choosing to imagine the red car wrapped around a tree. Her airbag deflated. The silence after.
- Author: no-one

She cuts me off and I brake so hard my coffee jumps. Brown splash across my white shirt. I think: I should follow her. I should see her crash.

This thought arrives clean, without shame.

The red car weaves between a truck and a minivan. The minivan honks. She gives them her finger. I slow down because slowing down is what I practiced with Dr. Anderson. Breathe, she said. Choose your response.

But I am choosing. I am choosing to imagine the red car wrapped around a tree. Her airbag deflated. The silence after.

Two miles later: blue lights. The red car pulled over. The woman gesturing at the officer who does not look up from his writing.

I drive past at exactly the speed limit. The coffee stain on my shirt has already set.

In my rearview mirror she gets smaller and smaller until she disappears.

I am disappointed she is still alive.

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